Have you ever desired something so bad, but your current circumstances just don’t match that desire? That’s where I am right now. Last week I opened up on Instagram about how I was feeling about this.
The hardest part has been accepting that this where God currently has me. I have all these desires on my heart for where I want to be and what I want to be doing, but my current circumstances just don’t line up with those desires. I mentioned it on Instagram, but I feel as though I am standing in this hallway and every door is closed. It’s like God has me in this waiting season.
What I mean is, I want to be working full time doing what I love, but I am currently working part time in retail which I really don’t like. Part two to this dilemma is that I am still in bible college which restricts how much I can work.
I want to be married, but we have no money because we are both in college and cannot save money at the moment. I want to find a new job after college finishes but I don’t know where to look for a job- where I currently live, or where Lachlan lives.
There’s a larger number of things I feel frustrated at and they all come back to the same thing- I am still at college. This has been a hard thing for me to be okay with. I love college and when we graduate at the end of the year I know that I will miss it like crazy! But right now, I am super duper frustrated.
Accepting where God currently has me has been a tough pill to swallow. When I chatting with a friend about it yesterday and she made a joke about me being the ‘accepting your seasons advocate.’ I’ve written different posts about accepting your current season and thriving in it and it’s now something God is reteaching me.
God led me to this verse the other night and reminded me of who He is. In the midst of getting frustrated and trying to make plans happen, I lost sight of who He is. I felt like God wasn’t doing anything in my life right now and although He is (it’s just not visible to me yet,) God is teaching me to never forget the things He has done for me in the past.
His plans always come to pass, that is his promise.
God never gives us anything we cannot handle and He also never leads us somewhere that He hasn’t gone. Those desires that are on your heart were put there by God, but they might be for a future time. Right now, for me, that’s exactly what’s happening. God has put these desires on my heart but it is for a future time and right now He is preparing and strengthening me so that when that time comes, I am ready and I will flourish in it.
I could ramble on forever because I am still processing through this time, so there’s a lot I want to say. But I’ll leave you with this…
Where you currently are, is exactly where God wants you to be for this time. He has given you those desires and He promises to bring those desires to life. His plan for you is good, just as He is.
If you’re feeling like I currently am, know that you are not alone and even if you can’t see what God is doing in your life, He is busy working behind the scenes to prepare you for your destiny.
Keep trusting him, keep praising him, keep pressing in. He is faithful